choose life


​Choose Life. Choose a college. Choose a career. Choose your soulmate.

Choose bigger smartphones, choose cruiser bikes, cars, Bluetooth headsets and electric kettles. Choose good shape, low fat, and dieting. Choose easy pay credit cards. Choose a 2BHK apartment.

Choose your friends.

Choose binge-watching, guilt-snacking, and window shopping and make yourself feel what passes for happy.

Choose stories, snaps, and double tap; human interaction reduced to nothing more than data. Choose thirteen reasons why Salman Khan is better than everyone else.

Choose screaming about illogical statements. Choose beef jokes, unrealistic ideals, blackmailing and an endless tide of depressing misogyny. Choose this life is a lie, and if it isn't, Rick and Morty is God.

Choose memes on T-shirts and matching bags. Choose a three-piece suit bought for one-time use in a range of fabrics. Choose home delivery and wondering who the hell you are on Sunday morning.

Choose sitting on that couch watching kind-numbing, spirit-crushing Netflix shows, stuffing stupid junk food into your mouth. Choose a eleven hour job and a one-hour journey to work. And choose the same for your kids, only worse, and maybe tell yourself that it's better that they never happened.

Choose rotting away at the end of it all, breathing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, broken people you spawned to replace yourselves. Choose unfulfilled promise and wishing you'd done it all differently. Choose never learning from your own mistakes. Choose watching history repeat itself. Choose the slow reconciliation towards what you can get, rather than what you always hoped for. Settle for less and keep a brave face on it. Choose disappointment and choose losing the ones you love, then as they fall from view, a piece of you dies with them until you can see that one day in the future, piece by piece, they will all be gone and there'll be nothing left of you to call alive or dead.

Choose your future.

Choose life. But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life. I chose something else. And the reasons? There are no reasons.

a tribute to trainspotting
Written by Yash Raj Talan

[note to self: find your drug and let it kill you]

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